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  “I gotta tell ya, Ava… you are one bold bitch. Having sex with best friends?” She grinned again, followed by a dramatic laugh. “Does Lee know you’re smashing my brother?”

  “No, he doesn’t know. But if he did know, I’m almost certain he wouldn’t care too much about it.”

  “I may have to disagree with you on that one, Ava. I mean, he may be stupid enough to fool around with numerous chicks… but I don’t think his hypocritical ass would be brave enough to accept you fooling around on him. Especially not with his best friend.”

  “That makes no damn sense. I mean, he’s fucking me, but has yet asked me to be his girl. He doesn’t seem to care about making this pussy, his pussy, so why the hell would he concern himself about who I’m fucking?”

  “You’ve got a point there… but do you really want to be judged as the girl who gets around? Are you not concerned about people loosing respect for you as a woman?”

  “Honestly, I don’t care.” I took a bite of my toast, chewed, and swallowed it before speaking again. “I know how men are. They tell you they love you, need you, want to be with you… but then they go out, fuck other chicks, and tell those bitches the exact same thing. Really, I don’t trust Lee or your brother. I think they’re both womanizers who’s only after one thing—pussy.”

  As I stood there voicing those words with such confidence, I realized that I was becoming someone I didn’t even know. No matter the consequences, I was willing to compromise myself in order to avoid a broken heart. I would have rather lied down with a man simply for enjoyment, than to expect love, happiness, and romance. Those expectations never got me anything besides a damaged heart and puffy, red under eyes. Fuck tryna be wifey; I just wanted the dick.

  “Promise me you won’t tell Lee about this,” I told Jalisa. “If I ever decide to tell him, I want it to come from my mouth. No one else’s.”

  “Well, I wouldn’t tell Lee anything about this anyway, because it’s not my business. I’ll leave that between you two. But whatever you do, don’t fuck yourself up tryna keep up with their games. I would hate to see your heart get broken in the end. I would hate for this all to backfire on you.”

  Purposely disregarding her statement, I sighed, and then finished off my last piece of toast. “I’m gonna be late for class,” I said, glancing at the clock above the microwave. “I have to be there in an hour. If I stay here another minute my teacher is gonna be pissed. I gotta call a cab and get goin’, girl.”

  “You’re going into class like that?” she asked, shocked. “Not saying you look bad, but it doesn’t seem to be classroom appropriate.”

  “Girl, no! If I go to class like this I might as well say good-bye to my nursing degree,” I said, laughing. “I’m gonna head home, take a quick shower, and then change my clothes.”

  “You don’t have to do all of that. I’m sure I’ve got something for you to wear. I’ll get you some clothes, you can take a shower here, and I’ll drive you to school also.” She grabbed my hand and led me to her bedroom. In her closet, she had so many clothes I didn’t know what to choose. “You can grab whatever you want. If you want something that’s never been worn before, you can take something from this bag right here.” She handed me a huge bag filled with dresses, shirts, and pants, and then pulled out a few pair of shoes for me to decide on.

  It didn’t take me long to find a simple pair of jeans and tee shirt to wear. It also didn’t take me long to find a decent pair of comfortable shoes. I rushed towards the bathroom, stripped myself naked, and stepped inside the shower. Once clean, I shut off the water, dried myself off, and swiftly got dressed. Afterwards, I peeked into John’s room only to see that he was still asleep. I decided not to wake him. Instead, I proceeded towards the front door with Jalisa, then headed to her car. Speeding, she managed to get me to school within ten minutes. I thanked her for the ride, her warm hospitality, and then closed the door before rushing off. By 10:09, I arrived inside the building. Out of breath, I strolled to the first seat I could find and sat down. On the dry erase board, Ms. Adams had our assignments organized, so right away, I grabbed my books and got to work.

  By the end of class, about four hours later, I gathered my belongings and headed near the exit. However, before I could get out of class, my teacher stopped me.

  “Hey, Ava? I wanted to talk to you before you left.”

  I slowly turned around and walked in her direction. “Yes, Ma’am?” I asked, standing directly in front of her desk.

  She took a seat, sighed, and then looked at me. “I hate to have to tell you this, Ava… but as of now, you are not doing so great in my class. I mean, sometimes you complete assignments, sometimes you don’t. Sometimes you get passing grades, other times, you don’t.” She took her glasses off and placed them on the table. “I know you may think I don’t care much, but at the end of the day you are my student. I want you to succeed. I want you to graduate my class with honors and leave here with much knowledge.”

  “I know I haven’t been trying my hardest; I know I’ve been slacking… but I promise that from this point on I will do my best to make you proud.”

  “That sounds delightful. But it’s not about making me proud. It’s not about keeping your grades up and graduating with honors for my sake… this is all for you. I want you to look at yourself five years from now being proud, thankful, and pleased with the person you’ve become. I cannot do that for you. Only you can make the best happen for yourself.”

  I agreed by nodding my head. “You’re right Ms. Adams, and I appreciate you for taking the time out to speak to me. I will get my head in the books. You will see a change in me. I promise.”

  I grabbed my things, proceeded out the door, and to the bus stop. Once the city bus arrived, I hopped on it. Roughly fifteen minutes later, I made it home. After relaxing during a hot bath, I threw some comfy clothes on, and then flopped onto the living room couch. With my eyes glued to the ceiling, all I could think about was my future. Where would I be? What would I be doing? Who would I be doing it with? I felt lost, but I knew that I needed to make some serious changes in my life. In my personal, and business life. I just needed to stay focused and come up with a plan. Should I leave Lee and John alone? I thought. Would this be necessary to do in order to stay attentive in school? Was I in over my head?

  After going back and forth with my thoughts for several minutes, I finally opened my schoolbook and began studying. I managed to get through a few sentences, but when my mind would not stop pondering, I became stressed and unmotivated all over again. To avoid completely ripping my books apart and having to pay the school for destroying their property, I simply put my work away and turned on the television. Lying on the couch with one foot dangling towards the floor, I scanned through the channels. There was nothing interesting to watch, so I turned my attention back towards the ceiling. I began to drift into deep thought again. Shortly after, my phone started to ring.

  “Hey Lee,” I said, dry.

  “Hey. How are you?”

  “I’m alright. Could be better, though. How are you?”

  “I’m good. I saw that you called me last night, but I couldn’t answer at the time, because I was working. I figured I’d get back to you and ask how your night was.”

  “My night was good. I went out with John. He threw a surprise party for his sister, Jalisa.”

  “How was the party?”

  “It was fun. I had a decent time.”

  “I’m glad you enjoyed yourself. I wish I could’ve joined, though.”

  We both remained silent for a few seconds. Then he said… “If you’re not busy tonight, I’d love to see you. Maybe chill at my house for a few hours… watch some movies, listen to some slow jams… whatever you want to do.”

  “I would love to spend some time with you tonight, but I’m exhausted,” I declined. “I just left school, I have so much work I need to catch up on, and I just don’t have the time for making other plans. Maybe tomorrow, or the next day?”


  “Sure. Tomorrow or the next day would be perfect. I understand that you have other things going on, so no worries. Just get back to me whenever you can.”

  “OK. I sure will. Thanks for understanding, Lee. I’ll talk to you later.”

  After ending the call, I could not help but want to contact John. Immediately, I dialed him up.

  “I was just thinking about you,” he said to me right away. “You must’ve somehow read my mind.”

  “Apparently I did. I was just thinking about you also.”

  “Last night was everything. You should come over again tonight.”

  “Goodness, John,” I said, chuckling. “You don’t have one guilty bone in your body, do you?”

  “Guilty bone in my body for what? I mean, we’re both grown. You know exactly what it is that I want; I know exactly what it is that you want. There is nothing for me to feel guilty about.”

  “I spoke to Lee a few moments ago.”

  “Oh really? What did he say? Did you tell him about us?”

  “Hell no, I didn’t! Why? Do you think I should? Do you plan on telling him anything anytime soon?”

  “No, I wasn’t planning on telling him anything. But if he were to ask me if I fucked you, I’d certainly tell him the truth.”

  “Well, I’m glad you didn’t mention it. Don’t. Like I told Jalisa earlier today… if I ever decided to tell him anything about what’s happened, I’d want him to hear it coming from my mouth.”

  “I can respect that. But if I were you, I wouldn’t worry about it too much. Lee and I have been friends for a very long time. As long as he doesn’t have plans on marrying you anytime soon, I doubt he’d give a damn about you fucking other men.”

  “So is that how you guys do it? You sleep with each other’s women without a care in the world? You pass ya girls to the whole squad without feeling any remorse?”

  As a reply, he let out a sarcastic laugh. “We wouldn’t pass around our woman. The only thing that gets passed around is our fling. That’s a chick we have no intentions on being exclusive with. We keep her around to fuck us, suck us, and keep us busy when we’re bored.”

  John’s preposterous ways of dealing with women had me wondering how he could live without feeling any disgrace. I mean, he just seemed so calm and honored to be expressing such a thing. I figured, if these men felt they could fuck someone whenever they wanted, so could I.

  “So you’re saying that you wouldn’t care if I fucked you, Lee, and five other men at the same time, huh?”

  “I wouldn’t give a damn what you do… as long as I hug that rubber around my dick before I slide inside you, we’re all good.”

  In a seductive tone, I said, “Well, why don’t you come on by with that rubber, and slide inside this pussy right now?”

  “Fasho. I’ll be over there. Make sure you got on something sexy for me.”

  Right after hanging up the phone, I took a quick shower, put on some baby oil, and threw a silk black robe over my nude body. It didn’t take John long to arrive. As soon as I opened the door and let him inside, he placed his hands beneath my waist as he caressed my thighs and ass cheeks. I slid my tongue up and down his neck and wrapped one leg around him. He then picked me up and walked us to my bedroom. He threw me on top of the bed, removed my robe, and propped himself between my legs.

  CHAPTER 11

  ADDICTED TO TRICKERY

  Instead of returning straight home after work the next evening, I chose to stop by Lee’s house to pay him a visit. Not only had I been dodging his presence overall, but I was also avoiding his phone calls. I had to make an attempt to see him before he started to suspect insincerity. Finally, I pulled up in front of his house and noticed two unfamiliar cars sitting outside of his driveway. Fearful of what I might walk into, I decided to leave and return later. Just as I was about to pull off, I spotted two attractive young females departing his home. Directly behind them, I saw Lee and John. Right away, my palms began to sweat, and my blood pressure started to boil. I could not believe what the fuck I was seeing. Instead of reacting harshly, however, I took two deep breaths and closed my eyes. A few seconds later, I opened them back up and sprung out of the car.

  The first person to realize my presence was John. Lee was still laughing and flirting with his guests. Livid, I walked towards the four of them, then stopped directly where they stood.

  “Oh, hey, Ava! I wasn’t expecting you,” said Lee. “I’m actually glad you’re here, though. These are my sisters, Lamina and Tiana. Lamina and Tiana, this is my special friend, Ava.”

  In total shock, I released a silent sigh. I then smiled nervously. “Hello.” I extended my hand to them both. “It is very nice to finally meet you.”

  “Same here,” Lamina agreed. “I cannot remember the last time my brother introduced a woman as his special friend. You must be very important.”

  I laughed bashfully, and then glanced at John, which for whatever reason, was smiling at me. I directed my focus back to Lamina and Tiana. “Again, it was very nice to meet you. Sorry I came so unexpected. Were you two about to leave?”

  “Yes, we are. Unfortunately we have to head back home to the city with our families,” Tiana said. “Maybe we can go out sometimes. Lee told us you’re from Cincinnati.”

  “Of course. That’ll be great. Just grab my number from Lee and give me a ring whenever you both have time.”

  “OK, will do,” they told me. They then said their goodbyes to John and Lee, hopped into their cars, and drove off.

  As I stood in front of that huge house in the presence of my main man, and side dick, I was speechless. My heart was pounding faster than a porn star’s bedspring. Eventually, I gained enough courage to look them both in their eyes to speak.

  “Well, good afternoon you two.”

  “Good afternoon,” they both said.

  “I’m glad you’re here,” Lee mentioned again. “I was going to stop by your house today, but now that you’re here, you should come inside and relax with me.”

  “Yeah… I felt bad for dissing you last night for a bunch of school work, so I thought I’d come by and make it up to you.” Still speaking to Lee, but looking at John, I said, “So what’s on the agenda for tonight? Movies? Dinner?”

  “Since it’s so cold out, I figured we’d watch a movie, wrap up in some covers, and cuddle.”

  “Sounds like a plan,” I approved. “So, John… what do you have planned for the evening?”

  “Nothing much,” he responded, wearing a devious smirk across his face. “I was thinking about relaxing for the rest of the day also. Maybe call up a few sexy friends over to keep me company on this frosty, sluggish day. You know how I do.” We all giggled.

  I replied, “Well you do that. Make sure you tell your sexy friends to bring a few covers with them to keep you guys warm and cozy.”

  We all just stood there staring at one another. John was staring at me, I was gazing at John, and Lee kept glancing between the both of us.

  “Well, I should get goin’,” John said, finally ending the awkward scene. “I will talk to you later, Lee.” He and Lee engaged in a handshake, and before walking to his car and opening the door, he took one last fleshly gaze at me and grinned.

  Right away, Lee and I continued inside his home. We walked directly upstairs to his bedroom and lied upon the bed. As we watched television, he positioned his arm around my shoulder and pulled me closer. He then kissed my cheek gently as he sucked in my sweet aroma.

  “I’ve been missing you like crazy,” he said, still smelling my scent with his eyes closed.

  “I’ve been missing you too. I’ve been so busy, though… it’s been almost impossible to stop by as much as I want to.”

  “I understand. I know you have a lot going on with school and work. I know you’ve been wrapped up with various of things. No need to explain. Take as much time as you need to take care of important business. When you get done, though... just make sure you get back to me.”

  I blushed a
s I licked my lips seductively. “Oh, is that right? You’ve been missing me that much, huh? Well… why don’t you come a little closer and show me just how much you’ve been missing me?” I licked my lips again, followed by whispering a few sweet nothings inside his ear. Again, he took a breath full of my fragrance, and then twirled his tongue gradually against my neck. As I sealed my eyes shut, I massaged the back of his head with my hand. With the other hand placed upon his face, I rubbed it lightly as the sensation from his tongue caused my walls to flood like a pool. Scratching, biting, rubbing, kissing, and gazing into each other’s eyes all at once, it didn’t take us long to reach our peaks.

  After an intense session, Lee turned over and fell asleep leaving me only to sit there with my thoughts. Eventually, I decided to leave and head back home. I didn’t even say goodbye to him, either. I simply planted a kiss on his cheek, grabbed my shoes, pursue, and coat, and sprinted out of the door.

  Nearly a block away from my home, the only thing I could think about was John. I could not help but wonder what he was doing, and whom he was doing it with. I was going insane, so without even attempting to call him, I sped down the street and proceeded towards his home. When I got there, I parked, jumped out of the car, and ran in front of the condo. Strange visitors were not allowed. The community was gated. In order to resume inside the building, I had to either have my own key, or be buzzed in by the person that lived there. Finally, after standing there shivering as I tried to decide whether I should be there or not, I rang the doorbell. When Jalisa answered, I told her that it was me and asked her let me in. As soon as she did so, I barged inside the warm building and ran towards the elevator. Once I reached the fourth floor, I took a few deep breaths, fixed my hair a bit, and continued to walk with composure.

  “Hey, girl!” Jalisa said as soon as she opened the door. “Are you here to see John?”

  Right after hugging her, I said, “Yes, I am, girl. Is he here?”